As you can tell from the title, I am not in a good mood right now! As I knew it would be, this weekend has been very difficult. We did the parade, BBQ, concerts, fair, and fireworks thing on the 4th. Friday Chris was off so we had a BBQ at our house with friends. Yesterday was so nice, and we wanted to do something as a family. We decided to take Jameson to Chuck E. Cheese for lunch and to play. On the way, I spoke with my brother and found out that him, his wife, and her friend were going to the drive-in last night to see Despicable Me 2 and Monsters University. We were wanting to see both of them and thought Jameson would like it, so we met them for dinner and went along.
This weekend has been a blast, but it has also led to a lot of poor food choices, overeating, and on a few days inactivity (except on Thursday when we had to walk 4 miles). For this reason, I knew that this morning's weigh-in was not going to be pretty. However, it was worse than I thought! I was extremely angry when I got on the scale this morning and had gained back ALL 5 pounds that I had lost in the week and a half prior.
Normally this would be the point where I'd give up! I would throw my hands up and say "I quit! What's the point? I worked my butt off and gave up all the foods I love for no reason." While I find it extremely frustrating that I can work like crazy for 2 weeks and gain all of it back in 3 days of being careless. Doesn't seem fair! However, today I did not have that giving up mentality that has plagued me for years! Today it was a motivating anger that I'm not going to let one stupid holiday weekend ruin my hard work. In fact, it makes me want to do the best I've ever done this week to get that 5 pounds back off in record time.
I'm not going to lie... I knew what I was doing and was mad at myself while I was doing it. But just like a cigarette to someone who trying to quit smoking, it just felt so good and comforting. But it feels better when I get on the scale and see the loss.
So while this is a post that I did not want to make... it is also a statement of my resolve to make this time different than all of those failed past attempts and for a better week ahead! Wish me luck!
You're right, a setback. BUT BRAVO FOR YOUR ATTITUDE AND RENEWED RESOLVE TO MAKE THIS HAPPEN AND NOT GIVE UP!!! Yes, this weekend was disappointing and frustrating, but it was just one weekend, and I'm glad you see it from that perspective. I'm a firm believer in everything happens for a reason, and this setback is no different. Not only did you learn how horrible it made you feel, you also learned you are tougher than this situation and stronger than you ever knew you could be!! And know that you have options; different diets and strategies work for different people. Obviously no one should starve themselves, but some can lose by eating smaller portions, leaving a few bites of everything on their plate, or dishing out less. Others cut back on or eliminate bread, potatoes, and rice. Others know they can resist desserts, so they do without. But always staying away from trigger foods, foods you can't stop eating once you start. I know you struggle when they bring chips and salsa to the table, but you can ask they not bring any to the table...things like that. Find out what works best or easiest for you. But keep that spark, that drive, that motivation. Like you said before, you've not given up on other goals when things got tough, and I know you can succeed at this goal too!! Pick a mantra and say it often, something like "I am stronger than a craving." or something that clicks for you. Remember how I always said you could do anything for a semester to get you through tough classes at college? You can do anything for 10 minutes, 30 minutes, an hour...talk yourself through that craving or tough situation. And keep blogging; I think it's helping keep you on track and motivated. So hang in there; YOU WILL SUCCEED...ONE POUND AND ONE DAY AT A TIME, YOU WILL SUCCEED!!! We love you so very much, and we're here if we can help in any way!!!
ReplyDeleteDitto what your mother said! Holiday weekends are always the worst and the important thing is to not give up!
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